I have a lot to me. There are a lot of layers. There are a lot of thoughts. There are a lot of beliefs. There are a lot of things which are part of me which I haven’t even yet recognized. These are the reasons why I’m never surprised that the guys who have been in my life have eventually said something along the lines of “You’re too much” or “You’re too complicated”. What seemed like devastation in the moment has proven to only be a blessing. They were right – all of those guys who ever said those things. They were entirely correct. I am too much for them. That is why not one of them has been the one. Yes, some have gotten close enough for me to believe they were the one, some closer than others. When it came down to it though, I am “too” for them. In one way or another, they have all failed. Even those who said so confidently I wasn’t too much for them to handle. I have no doubts that there is someone out there for me – one who will look at me, all my layers, beliefs, feelings, thoughts, and be in forever awe and amazement. I’m not scared of being with someone who is always presenting more, because as humans we’re never finished. In the mean time, I’ll continue being “too” for all of those others.