Seasons come and go. Literally and figuratively. Things are always changing. Each day is different from every other. Even when it feels like you live the same life every damn day.
You are the only constant.
Every new thing that enters your life can easily be viewed as an uncertainty. How you relate to that uncertainty has a lot to do with personality type.
When faced with new situations, some will be entirely thrilled and they’ll thrive because it’s how they are hardwired. Others, will slink back into the shadows and wait until they know it is safe and what to expect.
There’s no right or wrong way to handle things. I’ve had that exemplified in my life to an extreme degree recently. The challenges I’m currently facing in my life are those that many others have had to walk through, but the way I handle myself as I navigate this world is completely the way I will choose to – not how anyone else has or will.
Sitting in Austin, Texas I can’t help but realize how unprepared I am for my brothers upcoming nuptials. Tomorrow the second of us three children will no longer be single. It boggles my mind to even comprehend the fact he’s in a relationship, let alone engaged – let alone getting married — TOMORROW! Throughout all of this I am attempting my best to keep a happy face, not let the little things bother me, and most of all not allow the overwhelming amount of time spent with family be an issue.
The song “The Fighter” by Gym Class Heroes plays on repeat in my mind. Not only am I down in the south with a major change about to occur in my family, but I’m also looking at my personal life and where I want my life to go. I’m aware of the fact that I have multiple routes which I can follow with my life currently. I’m aware of the fact that I have no control of what really happens. I’m aware of the fact that I can derail my life and make things take longer than they need. What I’m unaware of is which path to take. Which of these seemingly perfect routes should I start heading down? The largest question of my life currently. Love it. I don’t want to be the person who is standing still in the midst of a moving world. That’s not where I’m at in my life. There’s something out there, I just need direction.